I don't know anymore

I thought my feelings were finally
gone.
But when I saw you again,
memories flooded back to me.
I don't know what my feelings are,
is it love
or just a crush?
It would be nice
if someone would help
me out.

uh oh

i am so nervous right now. i'm always overreacting. can't help it though, personality. it makes me who i am even though that might be a lame excuse.blah!! wish a sign would just come, i don't mind a little one, as long as there is one. help me!!

i sometimes hate you

You are the light in my dark room,
but you are also my cloud to the beaming sun.
Every time I want to give up,
you are there to encourage me.
But you can cause me to hate myself,
hate myself for not being better,
for not being the person you want me to be.
When I think of you,
I don't know if I should live on
or leave this sad sad world.
You are my warmth in my winter self,
but you are also my sorrow in my happiness.

Shit

I fell for it
again and again.
What an idiot.
I lead myself to
disappointment
and
dissatisfaction.
I should stop being so
trustworthy.
In the end,
I'm the only one left behind
in the cold.

Woot Woot!

I am able to keep a blog for more than a week!!
I am so proud of myself~~
Feels a need to celebrate =D
Bring in the cake!

When I thought

When I thought,
I finally found a place in life,
you push away from me.
You do this every time,
do you know how much you're hurting me?
Can you feel my pain,
is it nonexistent to you?
When I thought,
I could call you my friend,
you back away and
hold up a stop sign.
Do you know how much my tears
burn?
When I thought,
I can open up again,
you tell me to close it back up.
What do I mean to you?