sigh...

there's so much influences around me, it annoys me sometimes. i should always live above the influence,but when every single person is acting the same way, it's pretty hard to ignore. i should also stop daydreaming....can't tell the difference between reality and dreams anymore..am i going crazy? i shouldn't be since i know what my problem is and that is always the first step in curing yourself, right? hmmm a lot on my mind but i can't seem to find the answers, maybe they're right in front of my eyes and i'm just too blind to see them, i tend to only see the things i like to see and not what i need to see. Is everyone like this? It would be nice to know, to know you're not only in this world. Makes me think about friends...what is the definition of friends? is there even a definition of friends? if there's no exact definition of love, there's probably none for friends. hmmm i think i need a change in environment...it would help a lot...but where?? so random but isn't that how it should be? randomness = peace